I am two weeks into this project and I am noticing that I am spending a lot of time writing about the self-acceptance practices but that I am actually avoiding the practicing of them. Surprise. Surprise.
I am doing some of them but not in the committed way that I had intended. I am not carving out specific time for this. Instead I am working on building out this site and publishing what is here so far. While that is important it is not the substance of this project.
I know these practices work and I love the “idea” of them. But establishing the discipline of doing them often eludes me. This is a long standing pattern for me. I have been an early adopter of new concepts, philosophies, healing modalities, etc. Because of this I fool myself into thinking I’ve got it down – whatever it is that I dabbled in or learned about.
But the truth is that I love learning new things and while I initially delve deep, I too quickly think I’ve “been there – done that.”
I started doing Zen meditation in high school. And for many years I had this sense of myself as someone who was “into” meditation. The only problem was that my actual meditation practice had gone by the wayside. A minor detail. 
So of course this pattern is showing up here. Busted! Can’t get away with that anymore….
The good news is that I recognized it early on. The bad news is that I now have to address it. Just kidding. The bad news is for my ego only….my ego that would rather be a know-it-all but not have to do any work!
Anyone relate to this?
Do you have trouble staying with your self-care practices?
